Question:
Dear Rabbi,
I am a jew yet seen by physicians in a town of orthodox jewish industry. It may ever let.
Every morning I say thank Gd I am not a gentile. My psychiatrist and many run normalcy as if it is.
I have been bumped over for limits I can not set. My current doctor has said screwy things. The contest between my “imposing” behavior is a tell every time the doctor reviews me. I am guilty of the ve’ahavta because I speak of Torah in my home and on the way. Its still going on, Hashem knows and I know I am waiting on refreshed health and being by new heaven.
Why should I subject myself to torment to grow a perch for their commentary on illness? I am transitioning as Hashem may offer me my kosher. The psychiatrist gay confides I am doing well bearing an income that a ten year old would fret.
This is badly a harrow. I dislike jumping a luck other doctors fix it right and when last we tried it, the doctor wanted more risky therspy. He spent time with my mother who cried how insufferable I was and told me I could not tslk about Hashem. We did not go back and since I have bern happy better than suicide as it felt his yolk brushed me in.
Still, I am stuck no eggs but the cold buck of grainy defy talk. I can only discuss my heaven since it changes. I am kosher.
Hope well.
Answer:
You should just know that every day that a person is alive and he is ding mitzvot, he is accomplishing tremendous things. Eternity. Right now we don’t see it, but all of your work and mitzvos are creating a tremendously large bank account in heaven, and you will be very happy about at the time that Hashem decides.
Kesiva vchasima tova
